If You Cant Take The Heat; Than You Cant Play My Game

Alright. Last post before i 推出江湖 to take promos dwn with a chokeslam!

This yr, is by far the most diligent yr in my whole education lifespan so far. (haha.. yes i havent really been harworking have i?? :p )
So if nth goes wrong (and pray nth goes wrong!!), i'll be promoted successfully.. AND SMOOTHLY to j2 nxt yr.

if nt....
i dunno wad kinda downturn my seemingly not too bad life will take!
and yea, i wouldnt like that to happen.

I cant believe im saying this..
BUT I AM PRETTY NERVOUS ABOUT MY EXAMS.  period.

and if those tutors who think they're oh so super smart dare to set some kinda ridiculous ha!-i-cant-wait-to-see-you-die paper.
I swear im gonna kick their dirty little butts and leave behind a trail of super flowery language we all so like to use before i leave the sch!!!
Wahahahahaha!!!!

Okies, worries aside.
Everyone pray for me ok!
pray thay ill nt have a blank mind and that i can apply everything that i've studied opportunely!


So There,

To those who are about to embark on the same demanding and wearisome path that im about to take.
GOOD LUCK!
and may Tua Peh Gong bless all of you!

To those who are gonna suffer a fate worse than mind a couple of weeks ltr.
BESTEST OF BESTEST OF LUCK TO YOU TOO!!

Jiayou everyone and lets see each other crossing the rainbow full of colors in time to come!  =D=D=D


 

Oh My Tian!!!!
I Miss My Long Hair!!



COmparison: 

          
Before


 After 


Which is nIcer?!!  ^^

Just Changed The Theme Of My Blog Today.
Gt Bored Of The Old One.. Hee...
But The COlors... Somehow.... Doesnt really Appeal To Me THAT Much...
But Its The Best SO FAr.
SHall Chenge It When I Find Smth Newer And NIcer... =D

Anyways, Went Prawning today.
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT??!!!
I DIDNT EVEN CATCH A SINGLE PRAWN!!!!!!!!!
WAD THE HELLLL!!!!!!!!!!!
THE STUPID PRAWNS WERE PLAYING WITH MY BAIT!
KEEP MISLEADING ME!
CAN THEY JUST DROWN IN THEIR OWN WATER?!!!!!
hahahaha...
ok i noe thats imposibble. 
But i must FA xie!
waste my few hrs doing nth but holding onto that stick and waiting like a fool.
_)*!~~!@#$%^&*()_+)(*&^%$#@!~


on a happier note, studied 2chpts of chem today.
Quite accomplishing!
Met up with boyfren today.
Yayyy....  =D
Loves riding. HA....


Ok.. off to slp.
Study date with my lovely BBGTians tml!
Nights Ppl!!!!

i support second chances! hahaa...
went for the yellow ribbon walkathon today.
and i freaking felt like killing the organisers.
they told us to reach PASIR RIS MRT STATION by 7.30am.
and guess what time the walk started?!!
NINE A.M OKAY!!!

wah liew!
start so late say lahs!
dan i could have slept more!
and now, with only 3h of slp last night.
i can just fall flat on my bed and slp throughout the whoe of tmr!!
haha...

ok anyways.
had a little class bonding session with some of the class just now.
had fun.
its the 1st of its kind man.
so yea.
0716 are all kindhearted ppl who believe in 2nd chances!
haa...



* pearlyn says i look lost here..
haha... im just taking a rest my dear girl! =D









*if you happen to see this too...
  if you mean what you say,
  then why are things still the way they are?
  MU....

NYJC BBGT!!!
YOU GOT YOUR WISH!!!

hahhaa...
i just went to cut my hair today!
and yea, its pretty short.
and no, no pictures at the moment.
wait till a good hair day arrives and im in the mood to snap pictures of my short hair.
Then i shall show the whole wide world ok!
till then, go ahead and maximize ur imagination and try to picture me in short hair!!
haha  ^^



Bye!   *Zzooommmm!*

Dear Holiest, most benevolent BUddha, Guan Yin, Jade Emperor and whoever else is up there...
Please Grant the Superest of Memorising Power to me So That I Would be able to learn, study and remember my notes all in 1 glance.
so that i can score As for Promos.
and be promoted with top grade honours and a commend from mr Kwek!


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haha.

hi yo ppl! 
Havent been blogging for quite a long time.
and i noe u blog reading readers are missing my action!
haha..
so here i am, ready to briefly update u guys about my life!

1st and foremost: SCHOOL.
school's been real hectic and stressing this few weeks.
countless tests occuring every single wk.
just last wk alone.
i had tests 4 out of the 5 days in sch.
Struggling bball trgs and studyin for tests were a big NO-NO for me.
Seriously.. i dun tink i really like studyin so hard every single day.
haha..
but what to do?
THIS IS LIFE.

2ndly: FRIENDS
friends are a real big part of sch life.
they're there to spice up every single minute u spend in sch.
for eg. my beloved Candy Clique!
they actually invented paper mahjong to entertain everyone when we need to take that little short break away from our studies.
super ingenious can?!
haha...
so nice to have mahjong in sch!

then, there's the celebration for mus's bday with ting, tong and siyu,
had alot of fun dining at bakerzin and i tink we disturbed every diner there with our incessant laughing and noise making.
well.. mus was super high that day and we just couldnt gt her to quieten dwn!
haha...
ltr, we had our 1st legal alcohol drinking session at the balcony at the heerens.
the ambience there was quite comfortable.
for one, it was DARK.(but which pub/club wouldnt be dark right?)
haha....
then, there were lotsa sofas and cushions for those who wanted to relax and have a nice cuppa drink.
and there were those high stools kinda things for ppl to drink while overlooking th busy orchard rd.
it was kinda class..
but girls- if u're wearing a skirt.
dun try sitting there yea.
the whole street underneath would have a feast!
haa... 
and wei tong's face was so red like a..... er, red pen?
haha.. just jk.
she just looked like she applied blusher to her whole face.
that girl seriously has super sensitive blood( if there's such a thing that is).
haha..

 
HAPPY BDAY MUS!  @bakerzin


presenting: MUS! the bday gal!


playing the fools @bakerzin! just look at MUS'S FACE(middle). HAHA!


@ THE BALCONY. =D


flying kisses~!  =D


#3rdly: BBGT 
time spent with bbgt was nv boring.
full of nonsense and craps and all the gossiping.
its hard to gt bored ard these guys.
trg's officially ended for the preperation for exams.
and so we shall chiong for promos ok guys!
lets put in 102.986% effort into stuying!
ALL THE WAY~!!!

huiling bought us these "doll" thing frm bangkok.
and as im very lazy to upload the pics.
i shall grab 1 frm joyce's blog! and so it looks like this!



haha... tks ah ma!!

 
Anabel Lim @maths lesson. so lucky u're there to entertain me during mths fellow genius! haha.. =D


4thly: my BOYFREN!
did lotsa things with him. 
ndp, celebrate bdays, study, talk, study, talk, talk, talk.
haha.. its so nice to have some1 to push u and lend u a shoulder whenever u're feeling tired.
these past 2mths plus were a bliss!
its like even if some wall were to collapse right in front of u.
u wouldnt need to feel afraid.
coz he'll be there, shielding u from all the impacts and making sure u're alright.
so yea, thats how much he loves me and no, u guys cant gt a share of this coz its for me~ exclusively.
haha...
dun gt too envious!  =D=D=D


Ice- Skating! =D
 

this's the bag he bought for me! LOVELY! =p

   
                                NAtional Day Parade!!!
    


alrighty!
its quite a long post alr. this shud keep u guys sustained for awhile..
haha..
will be back! zai jian!

when your thoughts are away,
you're happy and full of live.

when you think of him,
u feel a dull twinge somewhere deep down inside you.

and all of a sudden,
you're not that happy and full of live anymore.

but after a pause,
you resume your cheerfulness.

and this cycle goes on.. and on.. and on.. and on.. and on.......



~and its back to mugging now! =)

the week is starting...
the start of hectic schedules and rushing to meet the deadlines of assignments again..

well..
at least i had a GREAT weekend..

and wads more..
its a short wk coming up!!

cant wait for 24h 3 on 3 at suntec!!

woo!!  ^^ ^^ ^^

Whew...
FInally A break for me to take a rest.
Had been chiong-ing assignments aft assignment, tests aft tests for the past 1 wk plus..
Had to attend trgs too...
its really mentally and physically draining..

Hence, i used all the free time i had in the world to rest. and rest. AND REST.
haha.. but dun tink i have alot of slp ok..
the REST amounts to bout max 6h per night.
thats TERRIBLE ok..

haa...

but great things do happen too!

2nd AUG was a TERRIFIC DAY!!
well of course... its my BIRTHDAY!

tks to NYJC BBGT for celebrating my bday! 
and giving me that shoebag.
so handy!
haha...
THANKS ALOT! LOVE YOU GUYS! ^^

and there's CSqaure..
Tks for the Kiss Goodbye recording!
haha.. althou i simply cant make out salt's singing!
but its still very SSWWWEEEETTTT.......

and to raymond, pei wan, ah kun, ah yi!
Love Ur Presents!
You Guys Really Noe Me.. 
Its all thats suitable for me..
Weee!!!

and everyone else who wished me eh!!
cant name all of u here.. but just tks!

Last but nt least,
my BOYFRIEND!
U've done so many, so many things.
and its really quite wonderful.
Shant say out all the details here.
ppl will gt inquisitive!
haha..
but THANKS ALOT!!!!
*Kick u!  [ u noe wad it means eh!  (>.<)]

okies.. done all that i wanna do..
off to harry nw! ciao~

im feeling freaking sian nw!!
nt bored, sian.
More like a im disappointed in myself kinda sian.

Guess Its Bcause of Miid Yrs?
Not That I did terribly, no.
but i didnt exactly perform to how i shud perform did i?
im supposed to be doin abit better dan my peers in the same level.
but for some reasons, they're doing better dan i do.

ok to be fair..
i did put in effort..
i did study for mid yrs..
say like 1 wk plus before the start?
but guess i didnt study hard enough..
shud have started earlier huh..
but then again, i rmb-ered i almost always couldnt focus and concentrate on studyin..
mayb im havin some pre- exam i-dun-give-a-heck-and-i-dun-care-coz-i-cant-focus disease..
haha...

and today...
ms tang's supposed to call my mum for a parent- tcher conference?
i guess there isnt much to say against my conduct.
aprt frm the regular late coming at the start of the yr,
there isnt anythin negative she can really say against me.
and ms tang wouldnt dig up smth so old to talk about.
at least this im quite sure..

what im really worried about is how my mum would feel aft she hears of my results.
aft all, she gave me enough freedom to control my own studies even thou i gt retained last yr,
she did nt interfere in my study methods, nor did she keep pressing me bout my studies.
and if she sees some lousy results ive gotten because she hadnt been keeping a tight enough rein on me, 
and bcause she trusted me enough to settle my own study duties,
she'd definitely blame herself for nt being stricter with me.

But wad can i say?
mayb i just didnt work hard enough.
mayb i didnt push myself far enough,
didnt make myself sit and focus during exam period.

mayb i aint even cut out for studying in a JC......

Lee siya sort of enlightened me yesterday.

She said:

Forget it lahs...
its all part of life....

and shes so right!
felt quite light hearted when she told me this...

and im officially alright ppl!
i'll just take this as hell trg for my bright future ahead!
went to run 2.4km today and played abit of ball...
all pent up stressed have been relieved!
Life's Great! lalala.....  =D


and thanks to those who'd showed concern bout this matter!
especially lee siya, peh weiting and YOU! the one who've been by my side throughout this whole thing.. u noe hu u are!!
hur hur...  ^^

its disheartening to know that this is the way you think.
but then again,
it must be failure on my part to make u think this way.

we used to be best friends.
i'd tell u everything i had in my mind.
i'd share my joy, my problems, my agitation, my excitement.. everything.
and when i finally found that someone special.
i couldnt wait to tell you the news.
i wanted you to be the 1st to hear about it, from me personally.
I've never had much guards about how i should act and wad i should say ard u..
for i knew u would understand me and accept me for whatever i do.

but recently, u've been breathing down my neck for every single thing that i do.
i dont know wad happened in the process..
perhaps u feel that theres a change in my attitude.
or is it simply just because u've changed ur perceptions about things and have started to disapprove of the things i do?

i remembered a few days ago...
u were waiting for a carpark space.
and the driver was taking her own sweet time to settle down before driving off.
i heard ur complains..
and all i ever wanted to do was to lift the mood and thats y i said press the horn at her..
i meant it as a joke..
but i had never expect such a big reaction from u.
u actually chided me for showing my attitude.

from that time on..
i knew that there was a serious communication breakdwn between us both.

Perhaps u're feeling the stress now that im attached.
perhaps u're afraid that u would have made a wrong choice by supporting my decision to gt involved in a r'ship.
or perhaps u wanted to see how much of a role model i can be in front of my younger siblings.
that is why i have never retorted you in anythin u've said.
i tried to see ur point of view.
i tried to understand ur concerns.
and im trying to prove to u that ur decision will not be wrong.
nor would mine be.

but i've sense the lost in trust from u.
i do not noe wad had happened to evoke such a change.
and u've never let me noe the reasons.

i tried to control my anger whenevr u accused me of smth i did not do.
or wen u assumed i did smth im nt supposed to when u did nt even witness wad had happened.
i know this isnt the time to show my temper and rebel and try to take things into my own hands.

i respect u.
i wanted to show u that im really mature enough to make the right decisions and do the right things.
but i dont see any chances opening up.

its okay.
i guess i'll have to take my time to prove it than.
and i know my sch results will be the biggest testimony to it.
Hence, ive decided to take sch and sch wrk more seriously.
i just hope when the time comes, you wont turn me away.

i know there will be no way u'd see this..
but i just had to gt things off my chest.

for now...
just give me a break.

F*CK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


im sorry i have to use this word.
but none other word can describe my mood as aptly as this now.

siam problems siam!!!

THANK YOU!!!! THE 12th batch of BBGT!!!!!


LOVED THE FAREWELL PARTY U GUYS PLANNED FOR US...
ALTHOUGH THERE WERE NO PERFORMANCES (haiz... sad...), BUT THERE WERE STILL LOTSA FUN and LAUGHTER!!!!
YOU GUYS ACTUALLY MADE ME FORGET MY BAD MOOD I WAS STILL EXPERIENCING WHEN I LEFT MY HOME FOR THE PARTY...

HAA... IM SO GLAD I HAVE YOU GUYS!!!

and thank u for the presents!
i was.... swayed.
haha...
and although all of you said that i have given u so much ecouragement,
but in actual fact , you guys are the one giving me the boost to continue pressing on every single training.
so THANKS TO YOU GUYS TOO!    =D



ok.. 
was feeling really crappy for 3/4 of the day..
but i feel so refreshed and light now..
thanks to nyjc bbgt and aqx!
haha..

~life should always continue to be like that...

its freaking unfair why being the eldest means i have to go through all these shit.
just because its the norm for parents to control their eldest child this way does NOT mean i have to accept this practice.
yes, i understand completely and clearly that you want me to establish this stupid role model for them to see and abide by.
But does it mean it have to be at the expense of my freedom, my preferences?
what happens to the space and the power to determine my own actions, my own activities?
so much for all that talk about independence huh?

does being the eldest mean i have to have so much restrictions and gain total liberty finally after god knows when while my siblings can achieve theirs at a much earlier time????
it just sounds freaking stupid if u ask me...

ok..
i know im being ridiculous here..
i know im procrastinating unsensibly, foolishly, absurdly...
but i just need to be imprudent now...

i just freaking CANT accept this fact!!!!!!!!!

AAARRRGGGHHHHH.............. LIFE SUCKS!!!!!!!!

luckily ive gt this wonderful bf who's there for me to abandon this stupid sensible, understanding, logical hull that im supposed to don on and lets me scold and swear and act like im some stupid immature 3 yr old kid when im angry!!

haha..
ok.. 
so i dun exactly act like some childish immature kid..
but at least im able to express all my anger out w/o having to compromise myself...

THANK YOU SOOO MUUCCCHHHH ANG QIXIANG!!!!
hahaha... 
u dont know how much it means to me just to have u listening to my complaints!!!  ^^
not forgetting how u can explain matters to me..
its this kinda push that'll bring me back to reality and recollect all my thinking and priorities when im losing it...
haa!

i dunno how to say...
but it just feels so nice to be able to lose all those common sense that im supposed to possess..
and get it back aft losing it...
at least im no longer worked up now..
haa...
and no worries! 
when i say i wont gt agitated again..
it wont happen... =)



ok... end of all this senseless rantings...
On a Happier note...
i met up with Mus, tong and wei ting today!!!
for harry potter movie...... free..
haa..
mus gt her tickets from her boss and so we've gt free movie passes, free popcorns, free drinks!
and that silly mus actually brought 4 cans of coke frm her shop..
who in their right mind would be able to finish 8 cans of drinks in 1 movie session?
hahaha...

took neoprints with them!
Finally!  after SSOOOO long....
shall post them up when mus scans them...


TO GRACIA, JAZ AND JIAYING!!
IF YOU'RE READING THIS... 
PLS PLS SEND ME PICTURES OF YOUR NEW HAIRSTYLES?!!
HAHA...


in the mean time..........
i tink i shall go back to thinking about my bf...
bye! ^^

To the 1 and only AINSLEY!!


STUDY HARD!
MUG HARD!


JIAYOU!
JIAYOU!!
JIAYOU!!!


Finish Ur Paper Soon And Come Train With US!!!!!


HAhaha...


AAAALLLLLLLLLLLL  THE WAAYYY!!!!!



BBGT  BEHIND YOU!
woooo!!

Okies.. 
I Havent been blogging for a few days...
Thats bcoz i went to BANGKOK!!

haha...

i noe not many ppl noe about dis trip as it was a last minuter, bing- bang- boom ZAO! kinda trip..
haa...
last min decision by mum truly!!
and since she so kindly offered to bring me along..
cant pass up dis chance can i?

haha...

but anyways..
bangkok was a huge DISAPPOINTMENT!!!

i tink i shall stick to honkong nxt time...
bangkok is simply... BORING!

ok aprt frm the thai massasge and the food...

there's absolutely nth to shop for,
no place to go,
nth fun to play with....

luckily there's still the food and massage!!

haha....


anyways... 
went back to toho garden a few days back..
brought back lotsa sweet memories...

the 4 level high staircase my friends used to complain about whenevr they came to my hse..
my room! my living room! my kithcen... my tooiiiillleeettttttt!!!
haa....



TOHO GARDENS!!!





~ you asked me if i was happy seeing you there today...
   of course i was!  dumb..

haha.... ^^